Where does the time go?

Wow, it's June already. The days are steadily getting hotter and my fuse gets shorter as the temp rises. I extremely dislike the heat. I need a vacation. I would love to be up in the Colorado Rockies right now. I love Estes Park, Co. in the summer. It is so cool that you need a jacket and it smells so clean when you get that high up in the mountains. Makes you want to yodel... ;)

My oldest two daughters are at church camp [insert the hallelujah chorus here] and we have had a relativly quiet week. It is amazing how getting the two teenage girls out of the house will completly change the dynamic of the house. Sara is sleeping in Rik and Ambers room (which will totally tick them off - muuhahahahahha) and it is so much more QUIET in this house. But we sure do miss them. I cannot wait to pick them up tomorrow! I am sure I will hear the unfolding drama of the week. Who likes who - who's "going" with who, etc. What does that mean anyway? Where are they going? NOWHERE. I "went" with quite a few boys whe I was their age - Bodie, Brian, Larry, Russ, Larry (again) and it was not until I was a sophomore that I actually went anywhere with a boy. Actually, That second time around with Larry, he had his Mom's car and we would go to Lake Overholser. oooooooohhhhhhh.
Whoa - I was out on another rant just now. Talk me down, man - TALK ME DOWN!

My husband is driving me crazy. He keeps interupting me! This is me "writing and being hateful" Eddie!
Only he will get that.

I miss Tulsa. I miss the metropolitan feel of it. People are just different there. Can life be so different only 100 miles away from here? I miss my Mom. She's been gone 9 months now, and I still feel as if I can just call her up.
I miss singing every Sunday in the band - I never should have taken a month off. Now I cannot get back in. I've been black-balled. It's just as well, I think I am too controversial for them anyway. Geez, it's not like I am Kelly freaking Osborne. Why, I ask you, do people think that every time the church doors are open you HAVE to be there?

I am going through all of this change and I HATE CHANGE. My husband and I have been in a constant state of transition for almost 2 years now...

I guess I am depressed.